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And so it begins . . .

Today marks Day 1 of my 40 day of Prayer and Fasting. 

I am doing the Daniel Fast.  Thus, I am only eating fruit, vegtables, and water.

“In those days I, Daniel, was mourning three full weeks. I ate no pleasant food, no meat or wine came into my mouth, nor did I anoint myself at all, till three whole weeks were fulfilled.”

Daniel 10:2, 3

Lent is a period of fasting and penitence (self-examination and repentance) during which observers have historically eaten sparingly.

It is a form of emulation of Jesus' example in His 40-day Fast in the wilderness of Judaea in preparation for his public ministry.

You can use the time to pray for your personal ministry, your family, or whatever you feel led to pray for.

One way to observe Lent is to "deny yourself" in some way regarding food and drink (a "partial fast" of eating less than usual, or temporarily "giving up" desserts, meat, a meal, or whatever you may choose) and to replace this with extra time devoted to prayer and Bible reading/study, or the reading of a Christian book. 

And so it begins, fighting my daily temptations of oreos and vanilla ice cream.  But I am determined to make this work, I truly believe that engaging in this sacrifice will reveal great things to me.

i wasn't created to date interracially

Okay so I’ve thought long and hard about this.


I’m just not cut out for dating interracially.

I’m not that black girl that fits that “mold.” There are black women that do fit the “mold”, God just didn't create me like that.

In my mind I just don’t think that a white man can love me like a brother. I mean I’ve tried to open myself up to this idea, but when I look at myself in the mirror, I don’t think that I am what a white man would sincerely love better yet find truly beautiful. And honestly, I have never been sexually attracted to a white man. Justin Timberlake is cute, but I can't see myself smashing him. All of my "dreams" have been about black men. My mind can't conceive making love to a white man.

About a month or so ago a white Frenchmen tried to talk to me outside of Whole Foods. And as much as I wanted to feel like his compliments were genuine, my gut told me another story. My gut said, "That kracka (that's how my gut talks) ain't trying to get to know you, he wants to FUCK you!" Sorry for the vulgarity. I really felt that he was attracted to me because he saw me as exotic -- hailing from the Caribbean with dreadlocks and a slight accent. I told him my parents were from Haiti and he seemed to fall more for me. He even said some crap about his ex being Haitian. I wonder if she had that good good, and maybe he thought I had some too. I thanked him for his kind words and got in my car and vroomed outta there.

But I left that conversation, first excited that someone had hit on me (HEY don't judge me. Every woman wants to be hit on! If you don't -- you AINT woman. Being hit on kinda affirms that you still got it!) And then confused -- disgusted.

I really look at myself in the mirror and I am very happy with the reflection that stares back. A black woman with big lips, loc'ed tresses, and hella bourghetto ways! That's me and I love all of ME. I'm not sure that I could find a white man that would love me just the way I am. So I've come to the conclusion that I'm not fit for an interracial relationship.

been chasin' chocolate honey

the good, the bad, and the ugly

i tried everything in my attempt to give up deodorant (if you missed my journey go here, here, and here for more information).

so the saga continued  . . .

Then, one day I was lookin too fine and feelin so sexy UNTIL I raised my hands and nearly fell out from the stank that double smacked me in my face! 

Enough was enough. Ya'll can't say that I didn't try. 

I left work IMMEDIATELY and went to the nearest Walgreens to seek additional protection.

The problem with my homemade deodorant is that it wasn't strong enough to fight the sweat, which caused the hideous odor. 

HOWEVER I will be going back to the drawing board.  You never know I may create the next natural deodorant.

I did purchase some natural deodorant at Walgreens.  It's called Tom's of Maine Natural Care Deodorant Stick.  Tom's is Aluminum-free, it contains no artificial or animal ingredients, and it is effective, long lasting, and natural.  I purchased it on sale for about $4.  It is definitely worth it.

The moral of the story is to pick yourself up after being knocked down by your stanking self and try something stronger.  lol.

still chasing honey . . .

i'm going through some changes

a month ago
A:  would you date a white man?
iamkamilah:  NOPE!

today
A: would you date a white man?
iamkamilah:  where he at?!?!


still chasing honey . . .

Mo Money, Mo Money, Mo Money

This year I have been working on managing my money.  I'm not a pocket pincher by any means, but I have come to the point in my life where I categorize things as either necessity or want.  Here are a few ways I save money:

1.  I do my own mani/pedi.  yes i know, who doesn't want to be pampered.  but do you know how much you save.  i use to go to the nail salon every 2 weeks.  now i do my own thang.  i have nail clippers, nail filers, cuticle nippers, polish, everything I need to do it myself.  today, i did tell myself that i would go to the nail salon because i was feeling lazy.  but i will only do that a few times in the year.  i haven't been to the salon in about 6 months and my nails are on point - don't get it twisted.  i do my sister's mani/pedi.  Dont know how to go to the best resource ---- YOUTUBE!

2.  check out your local thrift store, marshalls, target, ross, sale and clearance rack.  you can't tell me nothing.  i love clothes but i really love them when i get a great bargain.  my mom is in the second hand clothing business so she is always striking gold.  my mom has given me so many nice outfits from the thrift store.  just yesterday she gave me a dress (that was never worn) that had a price tag of $209.00 and she brought it for about fifty cents yes FIFTY CENTS!  dont sleep on the thrift store/target/marshalls/ross/etc.  they have the bomb stuff, just go to these location when the kiddies are at school and the adults are at work.  you find the best stuff when you are focused!

3.  bring lunch from home.  pack your own lunch.  thank God for my momma! my momma cooks food every day, we can have leftovers in the fridge and she will cook more food.  Crazy, i know but thank God for my momma.  I bring my own food to work, so I don't have to spend money during lunchtime.  Eating out every day adds up. 

I'm trying to get in the habit of working in the realm of necessity. Do I really need new winter boots when I live in Miami? Really. These are questions you need to ask yourself. In what realm are you working in? Want? Emotions? Implusiveness?


still chasin' money honey!